Define ‘Nerd’, Please...

It’s funny actually, the fact that when people brand me as a ‘nerd’, instead of being angry with them, I feel more like, laughing my ass off them. Yes, I admit that I’m a nerd. It’s obvious. I read a lot. I read books and comics. I write a lot. I write stories, poems, and am planning to write a book after this. And I don’t smoke, I don’t go clubbing, I don’t drink, I don’t spend my time hanging around at night, I don’t deal with drugs. And I just got my driving licence a few months back. My friends always told me, “Get a life, dude! Don’t be such a nerd!” I totally admit it, seriously. The only activities that I love joining them are playing sports: basketball, futsal, bowling and badminton.

But again, what is a nerd?

1. A person who is boring, stupid and not fashionable.
2. A person who is very interested in computers.

(Oxford Advanced Learners Dictionary 7th Edition.)

3. An intelligent but single-mindedly expert in a particular technical field or profession.
4. An insignificant student who is ridiculed as being affected or boringly studious.

(The Sage’s English Dictionary And Thesaurus)

See? I even took my time looking for the definitions! I am so nerd.

Boring and not fashionable, I cannot say whether or not I am ‘those’. But I’m pretty sure that I’m spontaneous and able to come up with ideas (brilliant and stupid) when the time’s right. And I certainly DON’T LIKE wearing a shirt tucked in, with a pair of slacks, and a tie around my neck. I prefer jeans and T-shirts, and a bangle for my left wrist. I don’t like watches. Interested in computers? I’m sure I love them only for entertainment. I’m not interested in the software and hardware.

Intelligent. Hm, I don’t know if I can be considered intelligent, but I’m sure I’m not stupid. Studious? Hell no! Ask my classmates, you’ll know that I go to classes just to maintain my attendance record. I’ll sleep, or draw pictures during the lectures, and I definitely HATE jotting down notes. Ask my housemates, you’ll know that I study at the very last minutes, and spend most of the time watching movies on the computer screen.

Do these facts make me a not-nerd boy? No! Because I’m not cool. I don’t do cool stuff like the cool boys do. So what am I, actually? A confused-nerd, maybe.

I don’t like rules. I certainly don’t like following petty rules like “Students must not wear jeans to class” and whatnot. I’m quite hot-tempered. But I don’t hit people when I’m pissed. I hit things. I used to punch the wall every time my heart was burning, until my hands bled. I once gave a fist to a door in my hostel, and it was damaged. I once punched into the mirror in my room, and it broke into pieces. I once kicked a CPU at my home, and it was out of service for quite a while. And none of them was cool. It was stupid.

I’m always confused with myself, honestly. Am I the good guy, or the bad guy? I don’t do bad stuff (yet?), but I don’t do the good ones either. So when people said that I’m a nerd, it actually jolted me into thinking. Yes, I LOVE thinking. But I wasn’t angry. If I was, then probably I was already in a bad mood. But not because of the ‘N’ word.

A few hours ago, some of my blog-friends told me that I’m a nerd. They were referring to the way I write and the way I speak (through comments). I told myself, “Again.”

Anyway, I’m not angry with them, honestly and sincerely. And I do blaspheme and use vulgar words a lot in real life, and I’m not proud of it. That’s why in here, I made a promise to myself that I’ll try my best not to practice any of those blaspheming and cursing. Try to be as polite as I can. Love and peace, that's all.

p/s: My girl friends ('kawan perempuan'/best friends and classmates) always told me that I’m extremely naughty. What does that even mean?